July 31, 2006

Setting Priorities

Since last March, I have been on my knees before the Lord asking Him to reorder my life. I made the decision to dedicate my life to holy living and to putting the Lord first in all that I do. I have been doing a lot of reading, Christian and non-Christian texts, novels, scholarship, etc., in addition to daily Bible and devotional books. I was heart-bent on filling my head with as much knowledge as possible in my efforts to gain and understand wisdom. The Lord in His kindness and mercy showed me that the only way to gain wisdom and understanding is found through His Son. This realization has changed my entire perspective and shifted my attention away from books and back to God. Hence, my lack in posting to this blog. My heart and mind have been moved and I honestly didn't have anything of value to post online.

Once my focus moved off of me and back onto the Lord, all my priorities changed. My day has been reordered and my thoughts, desires and feelings have shifted accordingly. I am now more conscious of how I spend my time and what I do and say, both online and in person. My time is no longer mine -- it is His and my plans are no longer mine -- they are His. Therefore, I must account for everything I do and the amount of time I spend doing work outside of His program for my life.

One of the areas of biggest concern is the amount of time I spend online. I work from home and home school and both require that I spend significant time online (I design web sites and our hs curriculum is online!) Normally, this wouldn't be a big issue but for me, it is. I tend to allow idleness to creep into my daily work. It is very easy to drift off and read blogs or eloops and before you know it, an hour or more has passed by. The Lord orders my day and He gives me a set amount of time to accomplish His tasks. If I spend my time doing things that are not ordained by Him, then I will never redeem those minutes or hours. Even Christian-type work, while done in the name of the Lord, can pull us off His assigned work.

My desire is to do His work, His way and according to His plan. I want to be able to say that all I know is "Christ and Him Crucified."

July 17, 2006

Knowing God

It's been a while since I last posted and I thought I should take a moment and add something new to my blog.

I have been reading...A LOT...lately. I tend to do that...you know...feast or famine...all or nothing. If it is not reading, it is working on my blog or website. It is partly my personality (I tend to be obsessive-compulsive) and partly my temperament. It is something I struggle with and work hard to overcome.

Well, one of the books I have been reading is J. I. Packer's book, "Knowing God." I picked this book up used at our local Half-Price bookstore a few weeks back. It is a suggested devotional book on the HEO Booklist (Ambleside Online-House of Education High School curriculum). I was delighted to find it for $3 and have read it (almost finished) each night since.

I know very little about J. Packer, other than he was President of Regent College in British Columbia and he was/is a well-known reformed theologian. I started reading his book and have to say, it has changed my life. Yes, hard to believe that one book could actually change my thinking, my attitude, and my understanding...but his book has done this.

I have been a Christian for nearly 35 years and considered myself to be mature and well-developed. Ha! Hardly...after reading through this book. First of all, I knew a lot about God but I really didn't know Him. Yes, I have had a personal relationship with the Lord for a long time but my understanding of His grace, His mercy, and His compassion was sadly lacking.

I have been humbled and I have been changed. J. Packer's book has taught me so much about God and about my response to Him. I now understand why we worship a Jealous God (his love for us is like that of a husband for a wife -- his zeal is perfect and our love for him is to be based in fidelity). I understand why He loves us so much and why we are to worship Him.

If you want to really know God, I would consider this book to be vital to understanding how to do that. It is considered a classic devotional book and I can now see why.

July 2, 2006

4th of July


is for the Attitudes
that conquer any quest
is for the Multitudes
who know just why they're blessed
pluribus unum
from sea to shining sea
for all the Riches found
where everyone is free
for Individuals
who sacrifice their all
because our Christian faith
will answer every call, so one more
for Attitudes
That live inside of us
God has blessed America
Cause God is who we trust

G O D B L E S S A M E R I C A !

© 2001 William Heffner

Wishing everyone a blessed and happy fourth of july!