October 14, 2008

Trusting the Lord


What more can one say?

I have been thinking a lot about trust recently. Well, to put it another way...the Lord has been dealing with me on this issue. There are some things going on in my life right now that require trust. I am being asked to trust the Lord and it is funny, but I am really struggling to do it. I trust the Lord for my salvation, my eternal destiny, my daily life. I just cannot trust Him to do what He has promised me, and it is causing an incredible amount of confusion in my life right now.

This morning as I prayed (yet again) for clarity, the Lord directed me to this blog post. I hadn't written anything below the picture and the tag line before, but am now expounding on it today. I went over to Dictionary.com to look up the meaning of the word "trust." Here is what I read:

trust

–noun
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2. confident expectation of something; hope.
3. confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.
4. a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.
5. the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.
6. the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.
7. charge, custody, or care: to leave valuables in someone's trust.
8. something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.

Ouch! As I read down the list, it became very clear to me just exactly what I needed to do (or for that matter, just exactly what I needed to stop doing). My trust is placed in the Lord. I am relying on Him for many things. I have confident expectation that He will do as He has promised.

The matter for me is one of recognizing exactly WHO holds my trust. The Lord is who He says He is -- I AM WHO I AM. His integrity is without question.

The matter for me is one of recognizing exactly HOW the Lord will do what He has promised. In His strength He will perform (the zeal of the Lord will perform it) whatever He has declared to do.

The Lord is ABLE to do what He has promised. He is the Creator who called all life into being -- He is MORE THAN ABLE to do what He has said He would do.

The Lord is sure -- His word will not fail. He has promised to never lose me, never leave me, never forsake me. His WORD IS SURE.

My issue is whether or not I am willing to walk in faith and TRUST Him to do the thing He has promised to me. It may sound simplistic, but in truth, it is a very hard task for me.

I am obstinate, willful and stubborn. I want to trust the Lord -- but I do not do it -- because I want to trust myself. I want to rely upon His integrity, His strength, His ability, and His assurance; but, I am relying upon myself, my strength, my ability and my own understanding.

In short, I am not trusting the Lord at all...I am trusting in myself and in what I can perform.

I am a flawed and failed human being -- I cannot save myself nor can I help myself. I need Him to do this for me. I am determined to trust Him for today, for tomorrow, and for eternity.

TRUST IN THE LORD

He is able to do all that He has promised to do.

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