I guess it is just part and parcel of being human, but in truth, I don't like it. I don't like it one bit, and I want to stop doing it. I want to stay fixed and focused and moving in the direction the Lord has in mind for me. I don't want to flounder and struggle and end up all twisted around (which seems to be a weekly thing for me).
I am so tired of this behavior. I am so tired of starting off following you, only to find myself lost in my own way. Please help me to stick to you like glue, to keep my eyes firmly fixed on you. I cannot do anything without you, and I am tired of being responsible and in control. I want you to be in control of my life, I want to follow you and to do what you want me to do. Please help me to surrender my will to yours so that I can rest and be at ease once again. Amen, so be it, Amen.