My brother has come to my rescue -- that is -- to help me with my resume and job hunt. He lives in North Carolina now, but works as a counselor for the state. He has been a rehabilitation counselor for ten years, and has worked with the VA, Goodwill Industries, and other State departments. He specializes in helping dislocated workers find work as well as working with disability benefits. I sent him my resume the other day, and he called me back to give me some good feedback on what I needed to do. Really, he walked me through the process of changing my image, changing how I present myself to prospective employers, and how to distinquish myself from everyone else out there. He gave me excellent advice, not just for changing my resume, but also for altering the way I perceive myself -- my own feelings about who I am and what I can do for a company or organization. I am so pleased with his help because I feel that it is the missing ingredient, the missing element, so to speak, in my finding the RIGHT job.
I have some home work to do, and this process will not be an easy one. It is not as simple as changing your resume--and bam!--get an interview!! No, it is a refining process, and with some time and a little bit MORE patience, I should be able to find a good job. PTL!
On another front, I am more and more convinced that I am doing the right thing when it comes to seeking work in Communications. I actually applied to the University of Phoenix to be an academic counselor. This is something I have wanted to do for a while, but the more I talked with my brother, the more I realized that I really want to stick with what I do best, and that is either writing (technical writing) or working in media relations. I want to downplay all my technical ability, and direct the focus to my interpersonal relationship skills, my ability to manage projects and programs, and my keen sense of detail. I am excited to finally be working towards something that seems to fit my personality and my abilities. Moreover, I am happy to know that my work, my college education, and my skill set will all mesh together. I am so into making things coordinate, to having one impression instead of many, and to be able to say "I am a Communications Specialist." It is true, this is what I do best, and now I will be able to demonstrate myself as such, and document through actual experience my abiltiies to do this kind of work!
God is so very good to me. He knows that this process has been long and very drawn out (no thanks to my part in the delay!) I am so ready for work, and I am so ready to get moving, to get started working in a career that will benefit me now, and build long-term success. I want to be settled, to be established, and to do work that is practical and good (useful). I also want to be working towards the accomplishment of His will for my life, and to do that, I need to be employed (school costs money, baby!) I also have some specific needs -- many of which I have written about on this blog (my roof for one), and those items need a big investment of cash to cover. I cannot do anything much at all working for Macy's, and while I am so thankful for the opportunity to work there, I cannot live on the pay (hourly just above minimum wage) nor can I handle the physical abuse (to my body -- standing all day takes its toll on my hip and back). I have been off two days now, and my back is still in agony. I am glad that I don't work tonight (tomorrow night is my next shift), so I will have another full day of rest. The issue, of course, is that working retail has perks, but the downside is really getting me down. I need to go, and I need to start working in a job that will provide well for me. I know it is JUST OVER THERE --> and I need to be patient until everything falls into the right place. It will be done -- it is HIS WILL afterall. I cannot be impatient, and I must wait. It will come to pass, I know this for certain. I must wait.
As I wait, I don't sit on my duff. I did that for a long while, waiting and sitting around. Now, I wait and I work. I go to school. I help my son with his college essays. I spend time with my parents and help them out as I can. I take care of my home. I study the cello, and work towards proficiency on that instrument. I do all these things WHILE I am waiting for the Lord to direct me to the job of His choosing. It is called actively waiting -- expectantly waiting, and this is the kind of waiting the Bible instructs us to do. We commit our way to the Lord, trusting Him to provide for us, and then we WAIT on Him. While we wait, we work. There is no vision to sitting still, there is no rescue at hand. We must work, and we must be faithful and diligent to expectantly look for His provision. This is the kind of waiting I have been doing now for over a year, and while I get really tired, really down at times (and sometimes depressed), I try to remember who it is I am waiting on, and then immediately I cheer up. I wait on the Lord, and in doing so, He lifts me up like as if I were upon the wings of eagles:
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 KJV