Well, it is 1:11 p.m. and my interview is running late. I am jazzed to be able to interview with the Doctoral Faculty at Regent University. This is the fulfillment of God's promise to me. He has orchestrated this process, brought me to this point, and is leading me through Regent University to the plan of His choosing. God has great things in store for me, and I am eager to see His will accomplished in and through my life.
As I contemplate what I will be asked, and how I will answer (Oh, Adonai -- you know I struggle so with these kinds of interviews, so please go through this for me?) -- I think about everything that has happened in my life to bring me to this place today. I am a new person, a new creation and my name is no longer Carol, but another name, a name of His desire. The Word tells us that we have a name that has been given to us by God, and this is the name of His decision. Our parents name us after Uncle Ed or Grandpa Lou, but God gives us a name that has significance and spiritual merit. God has a name that signifies our very souls, that identifies us with Him, and that places us within His special family.
I know that God has chosen a name for me that describes me to a "T." He knows me so well, and He understands my very desires, interests, and thoughts. Nothing is foreign or hidden to Him. He knows me. He knows everything about me. I love this fact, and I love knowing that I cannot surprise Him. I cannot pull something over on Him. I don't have to try to please Him. I don't have to try to make Him accept or like me. I am accepted on the basis of Jesus' blood. I am accepted because of my Savior's sacrifice and the price paid for my sin-debt. Thank you, Jesus, for your gift of life!
I am trying not to be nervous. I was told that the person I am meeting with via phone may run late. It is now 1:17, and I am feeling anxious about this interview. I am not upset that I took the time off from work to come home. I need the rest, I need to settle down and just chill today. I just would rather get this interview started. I would like to know that we are going forward, and moving toward the goal of acceptance. Plus I am getting sleepy just waiting, and I don't like to be sleepy on interviews. I need rest, Oh Adonai, how I need rest!
I decided to write on my blog while I was waiting so that I could keep my mind off this thing. It hasn't really help, LOL! I am writing about waiting for my interview -- oh, Adonai -- what have I done?
On other news fronts -- my mom is very ill. I am worried about her. She came down with a cold about 10 days ago. She went to her doctor, and he said she had a virus and it would run it's course. My mom has a special form of Leukemia, and her specialist told her to go to the doctor at the first sign of an infection. I wasn't pleased that her Primary just sent her home.
Then on Sunday, she called me, and was coughing so hard, and she said her throat hurt to the point where she was crying. I took her over to Urgent Care and they diagnosed her with a sinus infection. The medicine they gave her has not helped, and her coughing has gotten so much worse. Yesterday, my Dad said that she had fallen due to the medicine making her unsteady. My dad is not able to help her much due to his physical limitations.
I told my Dad to take her over to the doctor today -- but I am not sure if he was able to do it. Mom takes care of my Dad, and not the other way around. Oh, I am concerned that this is the beginning of that downhill slide. Mom and Dad will be 80 this year, and I am worried about what this means for them, and for me.
It is now 1:35 p.m., thirty-five minutes past my interview start time. I know that professors can be lax when it comes to keeping appointments, but still, this seems odd. I ask that you cover whatever is going on, and that you keep us moving forward with Regent and the application acceptance process. Please go before me, and smooth these rough waters. This is your will, your game plan, your work. Make it be your way. I ask this now in Jesus' Name, Amen. So be it, thy will be done. Selah! (Pause and Calmly think about it).