April 28, 2014
He Hears Me When I Call
Crisis Comm should be a good class. One of my favorite Regent professors teaches it. He is such a sweet, wonderful, Godly man, and he is so brilliant. I feel like I learn so much in his classes. I am a little concerned about the 8-week format. I have never taken a short course, so I don't know quite what to expect from the reading/writing load. Oh well...such is the life of a doctoral student!
On another front, it looks like I might be tasked to take my nephew back to LA this week. He is trying to get a ride with his friend or take the bus home, but my SIL told my Mom that "Carol is bringing him." I was like "Well, that hasn't been decided yet!" I would like to know for certain because my INTJ brain doesn't handle spur of the moment trips. I need to do laundry and I have to pack. I cannot jump in the car and drive 6.5 hours without a little bit of planning.
If there was a good week to drive west, then this would be it. I have GCU student papers to grade, but since my Regent school doesn't start until next week, I am "technically" free to loaf around. I wouldn't mind driving over to LA, it is just that I will be driving back solo. Now is when it would be nice to have a friend to go with me. Most of my friends from work are working -- so that let's them out. My teacher friends live in other states so it is just me and my parents (DJ has to work or else I know he would jump at the chance to go with me). Mom cannot go because she has an event on Saturday, and I told her she cannot leave my Dad alone for a couple days. He is OK, and he can take care of himself, but he also will have to feed the cats and clean the litter box. She NEEDS to stay (for other reasons -- see below!)
Oh, drats! I just got an email reminder that final grades for GCU students are due. My students just turned in their final papers yesterday! Give me a break! Well, it looks like my plans for today just flew out the window. I am going to be grading research papers all day long!
OK, I need a break today. My parents are driving me crazy. I love them, I really do, but they talk loudly to each other and they do it starting at 7 AM. I need some quiet right now. Perfect example, my Mom is talking to my Dad who happens to be in the garage working. She is standing at the garage door talking to him in this loud voice. I mean he is all of five feet from her and she is talking like he is 20-25 feet away. Now he is yelling at her about putting stuff away in the kitchen. Oh, this has got to end soon. I love them, of course I do, but there are days when I miss my quiet home. I miss my home!
It is now 10:36 and I am sitting here in my PJs. I have had my breakfast, and my coffee (Pikes Peak - our friend Barb brought a box of it for Easter -- Thank you, Barb!) for the morning. I am going to go hide in the bathroom. I need to get showered and dressed, and I can have some peace and quiet as long as I am in there. Oh, this is sad, so very sad.
I know that you orchestrated this arrangement so that my parents would have the help they needed, and I would have the support I needed while I started my PhD program. You know that I love my parents and that I think the world of them, but I am starting to suffocate here at home. I need some time away. I need some trips where I can go by myself and get away from the noise, the loud voices, and the tension of being four people in this one home. I ask Lord that you provide some respite for me, some time away. Even if it is just for a day or two, I ask for an opportunity to be released from this situation so I can have some downtime all to myself. I thank you for your provision, for your goodness toward me, and for the plans you have for my life. I ask now in Jesus' Name for this opportunity to be able to be a grown up again (at 51 I should be grown up, right?) Thank you for everything you have done in my life, and thank you for everything you are doing now. I trust you, and I rest in your sufficiency this day. Amen, so be it, thy will be done! Selah (pause, and think about it calmly)!